Crib Causes Breakdown

Today was one of those days that started out with a ton of potential and turned into a meltdown nightmare.

I went garage saleing with my mother in law this morning and it started off rather fun. We were both excited for a girl's day out together and we knew we'd find some fun treasures. We headed out and shopped a few sales and even ran into a cousin and her five wonderful children. I promptly volunteered to take the five kids any weekend that she and her wonderful husband wanted to journey out on their own. She was thrilled and promised to take me up on the offer sooner rather than later. While we were at that particular sale, I found the sweetest little tuxedo for two dollars and decided it was something I had to have. (Mind you, I bought my wedding dress nearly two years before I met my husband. Sometimes a certain thing just has to come home with you.) So, then we head on to another batch of sales and out of the corner of my eye, I see this beautiful crib. I decide we should go around the block and look at some other things first and if it was still there when we were done, I'd take a look at it. We finally arrive at the house with the crib and I am instantly in love. It is solid oak, not a scratch on it. It is one of those fabulous convertible beds that goes from crib to toddler bed to twin bed to queen bed. I suggest that it would be perfect and I could set it up in our guest room as a twin or queen bed for now. I am getting nearly giddy because I know that no matter who our child is to be, this bed will work. It would be just as useful for an eight year old as it would be for a infant. So, I'm convinced that along with my two dollar tuxedo, I need this crib/bed contraption. My mother in law is not nearly as convinced. She mentions that I don't even have the potential to have children right now, so I do NOT need this bed. Well, that just hit me right in the gut. I know she is right. My husband is thousands of miles away and our adoption process isn't even close to being started. I just wanted to be excited about this great bed. I think I just want to be excited about our kids without someone shooting me down.

To make matters worse, I suggest we call my brother in law and tell him about the bed. I obviously wasn't thinking. My brother in law has one son and another baby on the way. He does need a bed like that. He bought the bed. I'm glad that the bed will be useful for them. They apparently DO have the potential to have children at this time.

Due to this unforseen emotional crisis with this lovely oak bed, I've been bawling throughout the day at the most ridiculous times. I can't seem to stop crying.

Nathan is online now. I'll end for tonight.